Hello my beautiful baby. Today i woke again with the awful picture of finding you that day, today i went to your room and cryed, today i cryed when i talked to Maddy on the phone about how much we miss you, today Sam was too hard.I love you, i miss you, i want you back. I saw Mark yesterday and Jordon stayed the other night. Its all wrong Sam, you are ment to be here with them. It would have got better baby, if you had just held on a little longer it would have been ok. Maddy told me today you talked about what you would call your children when you had them but you will never have them and i hate that. Christa is having her baby boy in 6 weeks and you would have been so excited to meet him if you had stayed. You should be here Sam with us, its all just wrong and unfair. This world is unfair that it takes the good ones. Dad, i and the kids miss you more than you could imagine, it just isn't enough for us that we will see you again one day, live isn't life for us anymore sam it is just waiting til we are all together again. I love you baby boy to the moon and back forever and ever Amen